I’ve lost friendships because of the feeling that I’m always the second, worse option of a friend. People telling me about their other friends and canceling, limiting meetings and discussions with me so that they can spent that time with other better people. I hate the feeling that I don’t have a…
I think that blaming you for their actions (more like no actions) will only make them look stupid. I know that you really try to keep contact with your friends and blaming you for being “a bad friend”… man, it only tells that they don’t know anything about you in the end. If they can’t understand, then I think they aren’t really good friends in the first place. And talking about their other friends and telling that they have more time for them than for you.. Gosh, man..
But in the end, I’m not any better. I don’t meet with people much, because I’m so antisocial. I don’t have that "gosh, I’m lonely"-feeling so much these days. And if I look to my past, I can only see that most of my time I have socialized in the school or in the internet. And I have lived my life with animals (why I probably can feel much better with them, and of course with my mom and siblings)..
SO, I feel quite bad that I may have not speaked with you or other people as much as I should (or even met for a long time, but that action needs money, [transportation] which I don’t have)… But lonely wolf will always be lonely wolf. :B
(Though, no worries, I have quite fun in my current school. Our class is fabulous~) Just had to say that this doesn’t give negative feelings~